ADDICTION

(e dik shen) : n. The state of being given up or having yielded to a habit or practice or something habit-forming, as narcotics (or Facebook!) to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma [(s. of addictio) a giving over, surrender.

I love my giant unabridged Random House Dictionary, a gift given to me by dear Ned, a friend now deceased with whom I shared the experience of his heart transplant in Stanford 16 years ago.
So, why is this my topic this early morning? Well, I'm ADDICTED to writing in the early morning, whether in my hand-written journal or on this blog. As we all now know, I WAS addicted to YAHOO NEWS, but have not read one article this morning and went straight to my first addiction: steaming java with frothed vanilla cream and then sit down to enjoy that with this.

Well, I also didn't answer that first question: why this topic? Well dear readers, we are all plagued with SOME FORM of addiction, even if it's being addicted to saying one is not addicted to anything, because to cease not being addicted to something, a trauma on some level would result. Which brings us to another word:

TRAUMA: n. 1.Pathol. a. a body injury produced by violence or any thermal, chemical, etc., extrinsic agent. b. the condition produced by this; traumatism. 2. Psychiatry. a startling experience which has a lasting effect on mental life; a shock.

So our first definition relates to the pathological aspect, while the second relates to the psychological effect.

It would truly be startling to wake up and not have this cup of coffee and instead take the dawg out for an early morning walk, like VERY early, because I wake up really damned early no matter how late I stay up reading or streaming Netflix documentaries. I honestly don't need no effin coffee to wake up. I simply LOVE the HABIT of brewing it ~ LOVE the aroma as it teases my olfactory nerve ~ LOVE the sensation of anticipation as I pour my frothed and steaming vanilla half 'n half over the deep umber liquid and the foam, ah, the foam! The computer awaits me with the lull of it's monitorial glow and I sit before it with this cup of celestial delight as a concert pianist sits before the enormous Steinway to begin her Carnegie Hall performance. (Yes, we are being a bit dramatic here, but such is the rite of a writer)!

But "WHY", we ask, "WHY THIS TOPIC???" ~ Because...in using the power of those UNIVERSAL COMMANDS, this topic is one of the responses of the universe moving shit around to make one of my commands a reality.....namely choosing clarity of my own mind, clear direction of my life's purpose this time around, and having my soul in command over my mind with my ego behaving itself silently, waiting to serve ME when I call upon IT rather than the other way around, which is the basic curse of human nature.

Like I've told you in my previous blog on the subject when I recommended this book ~ UNIVERSAL COMMANDS WORK. In the book, when addressing the articulation involved in forming effective commands to run your life from your place of empowerment, (not a sniveling, whining little insignificant piece of powerless sinning shit that the Catholic dudes in those weird hats would have us believe we are) it is recommended to look up words for intended use in a dictionary that gives it's Latin root, because a word that sounds appropriate, like "want" - neutralizes your request and your command is not only worthless, but provides for you the opposite effect of what you are attempting to manifest, because 'wanting' means 'lacking' and if you are expressing to the universe your lack of something by saying you want it, you will continue to manifest that which is lacking in your life. (If you must read this sentence twice, then do so, because it is the only thing that makes sense of everyone's lacking enough resources for their lives to be easier and their continued 'wanting' things to go better!)

Hence, my love affair with the dictionary escalates. As I've always loved dictionaries, this love affair may now enter into the territory of an addiction. (Insert big laughing and winking icon here) See how the cycle just goes round and round? Why fight it (?), we are on a spinning planet going round and round, around a sun that goes round and round, in a solar system that goes round and round, etcetera, etcetera. It's only gravity that keeps us from getting dizzy. And we come to learn that gravity, our friend, turns out to be a foe to our youthful appearance~I mean just look at the effect it has on our perky young breasts and our firm, collagen-rich dermis? Are we laughing yet?

The good news is, I don't put any Bailey's in with my morning jo nor do I sneak little shots of vodka out in the shed, splash on my perfume, and think I've fooled everyone. I can't even fool myself anymore, the gig is UP! Besides, thinking one is fooling others, one is only fooling oneself. Because in the end, if your 'extrinsic agent' of choice is as destructive as alcohol or drugs, what does the addiction serve other than the demonic side of the ego? Life is a wrestling match with the demons until one comes to accept their presence without thinking one must engage in a battle with them. The demons in the form of addictive substances (extrinsic agents) will always be present on the material plane, but like our own ego, we must use them without letting them run us and taking over our empowerment. How can you enjoy a cocktail when you have to sneak a shot just to continue the game of thinking you need it in order to function? I'd personally rather have a few beers every once in a blue moon, and enjoy the silliness it evokes for an hour or so, but then again, people DO drink to act like me, I'm just naturally silly when I'm in my natural habitat!

From our place of empowerment, the true REVOLUTION begins, and our global societies are in need of a revolution, for the extrinsic agents have run it into the ground.....the revolution starts WITHIN us. GO FOR YOUR EMPOWERMENT people! Surrendering to addictive tendencies regarding substances that poison the body is giving up your own empowerment. The bad guys, the greedy ones in power, want us all to be addicted to something, it keeps the people out of touch with their own awesome power and keeps THEM in power.

Just look at the energy it takes to maintain an addiction? Just look at how it destroys life, trust, families and the very person hosting the demon? There are demons and angels and both are present at all times.....it's YOUR CHOICE. Being told it's a disease gives the addict an excuse to further give over their power of choice. CHOICE is not just a word, it's a POWER. Disease, whether it's cancer or an addiction is indicative of an IMBALANCE. CHOOSE TO BE BALANCED, and see how your life unfolds. Choose to use your EMPOWERMENT!

PARENTAL FREEDOMS ERODING

PARENTS BEWARE: Your freedom to choose the best course of therapy for your child is at risk. This article listed above is an outrage! Yes, there are the cases of some religious fanatics withholding medical treatment that is necessary and use what they believe is "the power of prayer" for the return of their child's health, and those children need intervening from authorities~~but not in this case.

The authorities are also trying to lump together all cases to support their intervening on parental rights pertaining to this issue. The problem with the judicial system, is they don't look at cases on an individual basis, but arrive at their decisions based on other cases that are allegedly similar.

WE THE PEOPLE need to not let this continue. WHAT CAN WE DO??? ~ if your child has ALOT of energy, too much maybe (all children have more energy than their worn out parents!) DON'T let a doctor give an official diagnosis of hyperactivity due to any SYNDROME they can legally prescribe drugs for. REMEMBER, the pharmaceutical companies are very powerful and have strong influence politically. They are not interested in the well being of you, your children or your grandchildren...they want us all on SOME sort of medication to feed their greed.

I for one was diagnosed as having bipolar depression when I was simply post-menopausal. The psychiatrist did not even ask this depressed middle aged woman in his office if I was taking any hormonal supplementation. He simply prescribed two meds and said "if they work, you're bipolar, if they don't, then you're not" ~ The two years I was on initially those meds, then a change of meds because they 'didn't work' ~ almost KILLED ME. I am not exaggerating ~ suicidal thoughts were prevalent, I could not function, I could not respond to ordinary life stresses in a functional way ~ my personality and ZEST that always got me through everything in life was GONE.

I was desperate for some sort of change, as I know too well what suicide does to the survivors, and I really did not want my life to end, I just wanted the suffering from within to end. I could not use my inner strength to WILL IT AWAY. At the suggestion of a friend, I had a simple saliva test from a doctor to test my hormone levels. They were all so severely deficient, this was said to be the cause of my depression and host of other symptoms, including the resultant osteoporosis that the scans have decided I have. Osteoporosis occurs the first two years after the menses stop. Calcium does not replenish the calcium that is lost in the bones. I suggest everyone google these issues and don't trust their doctors, get educated yourself. By the way: after the compounding of a bio-identical hormonal cream, my depressive symptoms have disappeared entirely and life is once again inhabited by ME, the ME I used to know, I am happy and fulfilled and fully functional. THERE IS NO NEED FOR WOMEN TO SUFFER FROM THIS!

With any health issue, educate yourself. Don't blindly go to the pharmacy with that piece of paper to get some drug without first researching what the symptoms could be caused from. There is no excuse for not taking your health or that of your child to the level of knowing about it yourself, before you even get to the doctor's appointment.

THE GOVERNMENT IS SLOWLY TAKING AWAY THE PARENTAL RIGHTS WE HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF OUR CHILDREN, using the few cases of fanatical people that shouldn't have reproduced in the first place. DON'T ALLOW A DIAGNOSIS OF ADD, BIPOLAR or any other psychological diagnosis be on the medical record of your child, as they can enforce you give your child drugs that will alter their developing mind, personality and emotions.

HERE'S THE ARTICLE THAT SPURRED THIS BLOG ENTRY: It's an outrage!

Mother battles Michigan over daughter's medication

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AP – This May 12, 2011 photo shows Maryanne Godboldo in Detroit. Godboldo is locked in a battle with Michigan's …

By COREY WILLIAMS, Associated Press Corey Williams, Associated Press – Sun May 22, 5:57 pm ET

DETROIT – Frustration over her physically impaired daughter's medical care led Maryanne Godboldo to lash out at what she considered state interference and into a 12-hour standoff when Detroit police came to take the girl away.

When it ended, the unemployed mother was in handcuffs; her daughter placed in a psychiatric hospital for children.

Godboldo now is locked in a bitter battle with Michigan's Department of Human Services over her right to determine whether the girl should continue taking the anti-psychotic drug Risperdal and the government's responsibility to look after the child's welfare.

Godboldo doesn't trust doctors much — she blames some of the girl's past medical problems on possible physician negligence and complications from childhood immunizations, but did not name the doctors or release her daughter's medical records to The Associated Press. She claims the girl has responded better to holistic treatment that does not include Risperdal.

But the state is not budging on its assertion that without the proper medication, Ariana is at risk.

"Our mandate is to go into court and prove there is medical neglect," said Human Services Director Maura Corrigan, who declined to speak directly about Godboldo's case due to the ongoing court proceedings.

"Is there harm to the child? That's what we are trying to assess," Corrigan told the AP in a recent interview.

A defiant Godboldo still believes she was right to defy police, despite five days in jail and criminal charges, including discharge of a firearm, three counts of assault with a dangerous weapon and resisting officers.

"I was in my home. Why should I come out? They were invading my home," Godboldo said.

Citing the charges, Godboldo declined to say if she fired a gun when police arrived at her home March 24. But officers said a gun and about 43 rounds of live ammunition were in the house, and a spent shell casing was found after the standoff, according to court records. Ariana also was in the house.

"I would always be concerned with a parent who has a gun and is using it when a child is present because accidents happen," said Oakland County Probate Court Judge Linda Hallmark, who isn't connected to the case but handles child custody issues. "If a parent feels the child is going to be removed and there isn't a basis for it, there are legal avenues that the parent needs to follow."

Ariana already had her share of medical troubles when Godboldo started giving her Risperdal more than a year ago at a doctor's suggestion. She had lost her right leg below the knee as an infant and wears a prosthesis. Godboldo claims she also developed encephalitis, or inflammation of the brain, before entering 6th grade.

She said her daughter complained often of being dizzy and had a hoarse voice, became more clingy and fearful, and avoided playing outside.

"It happened slowly at first, but it was enough to know when your child makes a change," Godboldo said.

She sought help at a Detroit area center. Staff there put Ariana on a treatment plan that included Risperdal, said Allison Folmar, one of Godboldo's attorneys.

Child Protective Services in its petition wrote that Ariana was diagnosed with "psychosis NOS," or "not otherwise specified," Folmar said.

"They are saying `it's something going on in her head, but we don't know what it is,'" the attorney added.

But Godboldo balked at a suggestion that her daughter be placed in a mental hospital. She took the girl's treatment to another center. She also decided to wean her from Risperdal, which sometimes is used to treat schizophrenia.

"Ariana has some issues. She requires one-on-one attention," said Folmar, describing how the girl at times appears unresponsive. But "she writes. She reads."

Risperdal often is used to contain behaviors like aggression and even treat autism, said Derek H. Suite, a board certified psychiatrist and president and chief executive of Full Circle Health in the Bronx, N.Y. Risperdal use has shown dramatic reductions in psychotic symptoms, but there can be side-effects, he added.

"Sometimes kids can have neurological problems ... muscular tics," Suite said. "These drugs can slow you down."

After Godboldo's confrontation with police, Ariana spent about a month in a children's psychiatric facility. She now is living with Godboldo's sister, Penny. A judge has ordered that other adult relatives be present when Godboldo visits with her daughter.

But "to this day, there is not one court order saying give her the medication," Folmar said. "No one has recommended giving the child the medication."

It's not unusual for parents and the state to be at odds over what's best.

Two Idaho parents lost a civil lawsuit last year when a judge ruled their rights were not violated by an officer who took custody of their infant daughter so a doctor could check for signs of meningitis. Dale and Leilani Neumann of Wisconsin were convicted of reckless homicide following the 2008 death of their 11-year-old daughter, whose undiagnosed diabetes was treated with prayer instead of conventional medicine.

Godboldo said the state was not involved in the care of her daughter until she pursued a more holistic treatment. When asked by the AP what that entailed, she replied: "God's medication."

After Godboldo refused to attend a meeting with Child Protective Services, officers arrived at her home to remove Ariana. Godboldo claimed they never showed her a court order.

Detroit police declined to comment about the case "because of the litigation involved," Sgt. Eren Stephens said in an email.

When Godboldo refused to allow police in, the officers tried to force their way through a side door but backed off after hearing a gun shot, court documents said.

"Maryann did not shoot at police and she did not fire a gun with any intention of scaring the police," Folmar said. "But even if she did fire a so-called warning shot, right now the question is of self-defense."

MOMENT OF LOVE

Let us all have a moment of love today. Not because all those religious fanatics are spreading fear of today being some sort of culmination of planetary doom, but because there is simply too much hatred everywhere.

My news fasting is not going too well, as I do partake in reading some news. HOWEVER, I don't spend hours on it anymore. I only skim certain headlines, and then go to the commentary and post a few comments here and there. I did, however, cow to the article about the Russian guy who was busted for eating a human liver with his potatoes. The commentary was hilarious, and endeared my fellow commentators to me with their senses of humor.

In skimming today's news, and then the commentaries, it seems HATRED is at an all time high. The commentaries on various articles illustrate this hatred clearly, and I posted some comments and replies to various haters to focus rather on their own empowerment.

HATRED destabilizes our empowerment, renders us with feelings of powerlessness over our own lives, and some people react to that very thing by committing acts of violence against innocent, defenseless creatures. It is a vicious cycle and to me, the only way to shift it is to give ourselves, even if it's only a moment of every day, over to feelings of love. Doesn't have to be focused on anyone in particular, like forcing ourselves to love perceived enemies, etc.....just feel the love in our hearts that created us. The love we hold for others, the love we hold for anything at all...just focus on that feeling of love. Just for even a moment.

I highly recommend the book: COMMANDING THE UNIVERSE by Andreas Satori. It is a system not a religion or a belief, that we can simply begin using to shift things in our own lives. It works. I haven't won the lotto yet, but then again I haven't bought a ticket. Besides, there's SO much more to life than money and the struggle for it and the struggle one has without enough of it flowing into their lives. This book will assist in the raising of our consciousness without being attached to any deities, religion, belief system or science. It just IS. Out of all the books I've read over the decades on all the subjects of healing, spirituality, self-help, etc., this one book is THE most vital of them all.

May this blog entry spread L O V E even for a moment, even to one person out there. Know this: we are all loved, not judged, by that which created all.

MASS CIRCUMCISION ARTICLE GOT ME!

OK, I caved in on the news fast with the article on mass circumcision just done in the Philippines. They are even trying to get into the Guinness Book of world records by outdoing previous mutilation parties. Can you say "BARBARIC"????

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20110507/ap_on_he_me/as_philippines_circumcision_3

The commentary was positively riveting and wholly entertaining, and I not only commented, but replied to several other comments as well. I just couldn't help myself!!!

The other article I caved in to reading was how billionaires all got together for a meeting in Tucson to discuss how to effectively give away their money to make a difference. One person's comment was worth replying to, he cut to the point of the problems with politicians and corporate America and just how f***ed the middle class is in this country and other aspects that are very real that are not being addressed. It was very well written and everything was spelled correctly....a rarity on Yahoo commentaries! It was a comment that I cut/pasted in a word doc that I will be reading on a news cast video I will soon be making.

Funny thing is, as I was typing the reply to this comment, saying how it is a situation such as this that is prompting me to walk, not actually "run" for President. This decision is still on the fence, as I will be sacrificing my invisibility and sense of safety, and thwarting myself and my family into the spotlight of this highly charged 'scene'.

We need to evolve from and heal the karma of this country being built on slavery and genocide....when I was writing about this, the whole thing disappeared and I had to start over. I know I didn't hit a wrong button, it seems the Yahoo censor department didn't let my post get NEAR publication. I revised it somewhat and re-posted. It was all about revolution of the mind that is necessary, not a revolution with guns and violence. I guess anything publicly written with the words GUEVARA~REVOLUTION~PRESIDENT~GENOCIDE is flagged by intelligence immediately. They may again be onto me as they were after I made my book public years ago.

My inner revolutionary is alive, well and kicking once again. I am tired of the mass sedation imposed on this country, and am tired of people allowing themselves to be sedated through mass media, electronic toys and mass-produced toxic 'food'. Commercially produced food provides not only no nutrients and has no taste compared to organically grown food, but actually poisons the planet to produce it, induces suffering of animals and poisons the bodies and minds of ourselves and our children. It starts with being en utero with what the mother eats, and goes to the infant when it begins drinking mass produced formula and GMO cereals. And then the new baby boy has to experience surgically imposed genital mutilation in the name of hygiene onto his brand new baby boy body and wide open psyche. No wonder men are hell-bent on warring and raping and torturing! (There are exceptions, of course!)

Which brings this blog entry back around to the beginning and the reason I broke my news fast, not for long, but to read up on the insanity that reigns through man.

How d'you like the font color I used? It's called foreskin pink!

MEDIA BULLSH*T

This is the PERFECT TIME for the NEWS FAST. The headlines all breeze past me: uncanny how this Islamist death comes perfectly timed just two days after the ROYAL WEDDING.

Can't everyone see it's media manipulation at it's finest??? I read just a snippet or two of media B.S. in this regard~~just enough to catch they are 99.9% positive of it being who they are telling us it is, yet their cheaper version of the DNA testing they did to ID him confirms that 99.9% of the DNA strand is identical in most people. WHUT???? Then they dumped his body into the sea according to Islamic tradition.

The whole thing is a pile of media/government crap~~or is that government-media crap. THEY ARE FEEDING US THE MAIN COURSE OF SH*T HERE PEOPLE~~~are we going to actually SWALLOW IT??????

I'm A TOPIC!!!

THIS JUST IN: I've just learned from a most reliable source that at a funeral of a lady I didn't even know, I, ME, MOI, was a topic of discussion!!! I don't know exactly the nature of the discussion, these details have not yet been revealed, however, one lady, whom I DO know of leaned over and said, "she took my husband."

Gossip is a pain-body activity, and is usually based on non-truths, exaggerations and judgments that are always inaccurate. Gossip is shared between people who in order to feel good about themselves, must have "something to say" about a person that is not present, along with some story that maligns that person. Others of the same level of personal growth, lean in with interest to listen to what that person has to say, giving the gossiper those desired moments of feeling important, "in the spotlight of attention". Then the other participants will add their two cents worth of judgments and what they might "have heard" to add to their own feeling of importance in those seconds they have the attention of the others. I feel the need to add here, a tidbit of enlightenment for all women who's husbands left them for another: There is NO ONE that can STEAL another's HUSBAND. No perfect marriage will find one of the partners straying from the sanctity of their union, either emotionally or sexually. You must face the fact that your marriage had holes in it that you chose to ignore for long enough to lose the interest and respect of your partner. If a woman or man insists even 10 years after their spouse left them, that they are the victim of having their partner stolen, they have not looked at their role in the dynamic of the situation, have taken no responsibility for the breakdown of their marriage, and is not getting their share of the growth opportunities that come from such an earthly experience. The eternal victim learns nothing, but in fact propagates further pain body activity. This pain body spews gossip. The circle goes round and round and the reasons for their life situations are nothing more than feasting material for their ever-growing pain-bodies, when in fact, any and all of inter-relational situations are but growing opportunities for our OWN selves. I have taken my share of the responsibility for the above mentioned gossip that continues to go around this small town. It doesn't effect me that one of my names has been turned into gossip fodder. I have several names and may yet have several more, so if one of them is trashed, this means not only NOTHING to me, but is quite possibly a marketing potential for something I've created and wish to sell, be it an idea or a book!

As an empath, I can FEEL the vibration of gossip going on, but I choose to let it drop away and not adversely effect me. Women who feel they must gossip about another and propagate a pain-body story, simply highlight publicly the fact that they don't have a life of any significance and are parading their own sense of powerlessness. My sympathies are with you, dear lady, and my hopes are that you indeed find your purpose, as you certainly have enough financial resources to not continue such self-demeaning activities and can actually put GOOD ENERGY on this ailing planet. I find it humorous that I am discussed at funerals of people I don't even know. There's no telling how many circles I am discussed in, the participants taking glee in trashing the name of someone they've never met and certainly have never even had a conversation with. This illustrates the purpose of reincarnation, as people assuming no responsibility for the events in their own lives, continually blaming others, have lots of lives to live until they "get it". May I recommend you invest some of your financial fortune into treating your ailing sense of self with some CELLULAR MEMORY RELEASE sessions....I can refer you to a fantastic practitioner! Taking responsibility for our life's events is not easy and sometimes downright painful. It's like walking over hot coals. But, it's part of our reason for being here, which is an age-old question: the reason for our existence..."why am I here?" ......a question that has been pondered since the onset of the thinking human.
This of course leads to my recent discovery of the new science of Genetology, not to be confused with Genealogy but it is the reason genealogy exists! More on this topic in another blog....stay tuned!

NEWS FASTING: DAY 2

With the headlines blaring on my Yahoo! homepage, it was difficult to not get sucked into the goo. I did read just a couple of paragraphs into the killing of Osama bin Laden, but then the only thoughts were "this is all crap" ~ so I happily just checked my email.

William & Kate caught my eye with their "sensible" beginning of married life, and I did succumb to reading that very brief article. Although the news page held out delectable temptations to read more about this adorable couple, I happily resisted. Match dot com doesn't even hold my interest. I've received several winks this morning and one who sent me a message saying "you look like a movie star and I'd like to be friends." I skimmed their profiles briefly with no interest or the pangs of "maybe this one" as in pre-fast days.

Honestly, after a weekend of experiencing a lovely home-style friendship of CMR sharing, long walks with the dog and preparing delicious meals, complete with lots of laughter, the news page holds my interest NOT AT ALL!

As I said I'd report personal progress that occurs with the extra time I have, it has come to my attention that I have an actual title and a degree in a field who's name I myself have discovered: Genetology. I am a genetologist. I have already begun "the paper" on this new science which is: The study of the effect of genitalia on human behavior and the human decision making process. Your amusement is guaranteed, as mine is over the top on this one, folks. The discovery of this term and what it means found me laughing my arse off, and that of my friend. There will be more on this very fascinating science, one of quantum controversy, on another blog. Stay tuned, friends and fans, for more riveting details on both my NEWS FAST and on this exciting new discovery in science!