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HEADING TO VENICE-what a blessing! I was 'directed' to go to place the book in the hands of a certain person also at this location on the planet. I will not disclose to whom THE CHE DIARIES is destined, I can only say my direction came from the same source that instructed me to publish the book in the first place.
It has always been a dream of mine to bum around Venice with my camera for an extended period, so this will be realized. Anytime is a good time to realize ones dream(s). Of course, there will be many photos and videos of my adventure. I am not, however, taking my laptop and will not be spending precious time in an internet cafe; so, dear readers, don't look for any blog entries until after mid-April.
I have never traveled to Europe solo, and was a bit nervous at this reality until I've absorbed Rick Steve's travel tips for Venice. My apprehension was somewhat alleviated at learning the in's and out's of the routes of the water bus from the airport to my 'stop'. I will, of course, be traveling with my guide from the other dimension, so really, I should experience a GRAND time on the Grand Canal!
Just the title of this blog may sound too out there for anyone to read further. Or, it may ring a bell with something you've been experiencing without knowing there is an actual validity to your experience, hence you think you're crazy.
GOOD NEWS: YOU ARE NOT CRAZY! I went through an experience involving a being on another dimension, and I went through it alone, roller coasting between thinking I was crazy or alone too long and enjoying privately without being able to share with anyone the ecstasy I was experiencing from this multi dimensional communication. To make it even more difficult, the being in my life was an infamous historical person who was very controversial on a global scale, and someone who I'd never heard of before he came to me. Although my book has been well received by the small global audience that has read it (I know this from their feedback to me), there are people who just think I'm plain crazy. Well, I've lived a life outside the box anyway, so people's judgments and/or opinions of me are in no way who I am. And I've lived by WC Field's quote: "what other people think about me is none of my business." ....or was that Winston Churchill? oops, I forgot.
I invite anyone to comment that may be experiencing something that could be termed multi-dimensional. It could be from a lost loved one who is communicating with you and when you share this, people tell you it's only because you are grieving that you imagine they are communicating with you. Please know that departed loved ones have no way of communicating except through dreams, thoughts and various electrical systems.
My friend who's wife died always seems to create blinks in the lighting system of the home she lived in w/her husband. Also, when his housekeeper comes in and waters the orchids this lady used to love, the phone would ring one time in that room, consistently, every time she went in to water them. These are just two examples of how electrical systems are utilized in communication.
This happens in my home, only in the bedroom with the overhead light. It sometimes just comes on, and there is no short in the wiring. It never did this before my multi dimensional partner integrated into my life.
I researched everything online to try to gain an understanding of what I was experiencing, for my multi dimensional relationship was not borne from someone I've loved in this life that passed on. I found nothing at all that synched with my experience. It's been 3.5 years now, and our energies are settled in together where I no longer have the upheavals of it's onset. It does present issues though, like my taste in music has changed and I almost can't listen to what I used to like, and am always compelled to play Latin music, mostly tangos.
As you read my blogs, should you want to reach out and share your experience, I would welcome it, and NEVER judge you, but will provide you comfort. After all, you are experiencing something that people would ridicule out of their lack of understanding, and society is hooked on the diseased mindset of a concept called "NORMAL" -- which, by the way, does not exist.
We all strive for balance. Sounds simple - ISN'T. After all, what IS balance? We each have our own interpretation of what a balanced life is, and maybe our interpretations aren't actually accurate, but recitations of what we think it SHOULD be based on what we read or have seen on TV.
Same goes for HAPPINESS - what is it exactly? A good mood? A feeling of contentment based on life conditions, environment, the way people treat us, how much financial security we think we have? How happy are you AFTER your vacation?
Does living a balanced, happy life mean we can count our blessings despite challenges, and be returned to a state of joyous-all-is-well state of mind after a brief upset from some event?
Personally, I have always counted my blessings, and basically it was because I wanted to teach it to my daughters when raising them. As a single mom, there were emotional & financial challenges constantly, and to be a positive influence, I had to live what I wanted to teach. Example by living is more powerful and influential than mere words to a child. Children don't learn by hearing, they learn by observing. Sounds easy - ISN'T if you're trying to be consistent.
The girls are grown w/families of their own. Ironically, I am having issues in living my life as I have lived and taught my daughters when I was younger. I find myself in more bad moods and of bitter mind than I want for myself. I do count my blessings, I have a gratitude journal that I write at least 5 things I am grateful for each morning before I start my day. (Honestly, I don't do this every SINGLE day, but my days go better when I DO write in this journal)
This always worked in setting my day to start out in a feeling of gratitude for life's blessings, (even if one particular morning the only thing I can think of in the moment to be grateful for is the aroma of my morning coffee) inviting more blessings into my life. Now I write it with the taste of a bitter pill in my psyche. There is an issue in my life OUTSIDE myself that is effecting my lightness of spirit currently. It's a big heart-issue and it's kicking my ass despite daily applications of spiritual teachings. The goal of truth seeking and spiritual teachings of all kinds is to hold onto one's natural state of joyous mind despite life's exterior events that challenge this. Well, easier said than done. I have been practicing this for years, and something is missing to be making this work with this particular issue.
This whole process, is called WHERE I'M AT RIGHT NOW. I must accept this, embrace my state of mind and my grief process, however bitter, experience it, and then it will dissolve of its own accord with all the above applied to it. Conscious Observer. To be a conscious observer of our reactions to life's ass kickers of all sorts, will alleviate us being reactors. WATCH the bad mood come over you, WATCH what your mind does with a negative (or positive) outside influence. How long will the mind dwell on this that makes the observer upset? Observing it removes some of the 'taking it personal' nature of any event, however personal it seems at the time. I'm working this one hard & fast, and my ass is STILL getting kicked. It must be a very significant passage of personal growth that this issue is presenting. I intend to keep working with it and not give in to the sadness, helplessness and myriad other emotions that are evoked with this issue.
I've been trekking life on the spiritual path as long as I can remember. Affiliated with no church or organization saying their way is the only way, intuition, nature and books are my teachers. Silence is one of the best teachers, no TV or musical distractions. The sound of the forest (nature) is the music I listen to all the time. It assists the human spirit to feel like it's a part of nature, not separate from it, and it's the sense of separation that is the essence of any suffering we endure. Separation from the power we have to create change in our lives, power to help ourselves put life's issues into perspective, separation from the power we have been given to choose to go plant a flower rather than dwell in a bitter mindset.
There is a lady that I've met through a network that has inspired me to steer this blog into being geared to address life issues and create a place for those in difficult states of mind with the grief process to communicate. She and I have communicated and it is for her that I begin this new direction in my blog. Thank you "L" - you are a fragrant rose in the garden of life, and despite the overgrowth of weeds, your beauty stands out. She told me she would like to learn from me about a certain subject we came together over. She inspired me, and lifted my flagging spirit this sunny day, and now I write this blog straight from my heart in this moment.
